I think I’ll be sleeping well tonight. After a fun filled day up at Mt Seymour, snowboarding with my son and his two friends, my body is ready to crash.
I also think I’ll be able to get a good night’s sleep because I feel a sense of peace. Today, Anne decided that she wanted us to be just friends and I mutually agreed wholeheartedly. It’s been a wonderful month of fond memories built on engaging, deep conversations that were educational, healing and from eclectic perspectives. It was also a time of fun, flirty and funny moments – it’s been an absolute delight meeting her.
Focusing on myself and conscious awareness has been much of my goal and I’m really pleased by what I demonstrated to myself during this time around. I demonstrated growth, self-confidence, inner awareness and also made sure that I challenged my ego when it did creep up every now and then. I’ve traveled a long ways to get here, and darn proud of myself for demonstrating self-love, self-worth and acceptance. During this past month, I exercised many tools I’ve learned including: meditation, journaling, painting, positive affirmations, recognizing bodily triggers and self-talk/compassion to relieve myself of any conflicting thoughts I may have had. I feel I’ve come out incredibly stronger after this experience and am very thankful for everything that happened and I have her and myself to thank for this.
In the end, there’s not much to analyze what isn’t there, other than a friendship of traversing souls. I don’t believe there will be any binge watching of sad romantic movies on Netflix while polishing off tubs of double-chocolate chip ice cream. No sad songs to play on Spotify…just happy tunes that remind me of good moments. I feel at peace tonight.
I really enjoyed my time snowboarding today and will be hitting the mountain again next week and in the latter part of January with friends Stella and Cat. I’ll also be taking guitar lessons again starting mid January, something I’ve been meaning to do for a long time and finally getting around to. Life carries on as it should and with optimism.
It’s been a great month filled with so many new learnings about myself. With each passing significant experience in my life, I’m able to self-reflect with personal growth. There’s been so many incredible positives to take away from this experience including the purpose of meeting a wonderful individual with so much knowledge and resilience in life. Yet another chapter in my life, albeit short, has completed and new ones await.
A friend sent me this message which I will close off with. It resonated with me because it really sums up how I feel right now. It’s simply beautiful…
“I think you should focus on getting as many good memories out of the relationship, romantic or not. Maybe this will become a great friendship! Or maybe you’ll go your separate ways but remember each other fondly as someone who made you smile.”