What is it about my ego that makes me want to believe I am right rather than doing what is right?
I confuse myself at times between being righteous and doing the right thing. It can be such a perplexing thought. The ego inside of me wants the last word in, wants to be on a pedestal and wants my tires to be pumped. The ego makes me believe that my principles and values are correct and everyone else’s is flawed. And the ego won’t back down from a fight and will do everything to justify my actions, making me believe what I am doing is righteous.
When I fail to listen to others and their perspectives, that’s my ego preventing me from change and therefore growth. Is this ego part of my genetic makeup? Is it an attitude that I inherently have? Is it a learned behaviour?
It’s a struggle for me still at times having this inner conflict with my ego. I can get pulled into a vacuum of the crazy dance as some call it, when I really should be able to accept things as they are and move forward unscathed.
Many people turn to bloggers and writers for advice and inspiration. But today I’m here before my fellow readers humbled, as a human being and one who still makes mistakes from time to time. Being an author or blogger doesn’t mean I’m always right. I get equally as lost and misguided as anyone else, sometimes maybe more.
And as for my ego, Fuck him! I’ll be ready to duel with him again the next chance I have but with gentle compassion and understanding.